From Then to Now

Sorry for the lack of updates over the last six months. Many things have been going on in my world and sadly have not had the time nor mental go ahead to get things done. Here are some of the highs and lows from the last 6 months to now.

* I left Children's Hospital, well transferred, after my job was being fazed out. In September I landed as a Tech at Barnes OR in Ortho/Trauma.....and couldn't be happier. I get to be more hands on, and with enough time, I will learn the department and be able to do more.

* My best friend, the one that got away, L got engaged. Her and her man will be getting married in March-ish I believe. I wish them the greatest of luck and hope happiness is always in their lives.

* Have really began to notice over the last few years a sort of slow decline in my mental abilities......hence the lack of updates. My stories and updates, whether they are here, facebook, or twitter, are littered with missing words and incomplete thoughts. In the past I was scared as to what this might imply, but over the last 6 months of mental and personal change, I am aware that I am at the mercy of my body. Whatever may come if it, so be it. I may sound dumb, my writings incomplete, but in the end........ I will still be me. When it comes to medicine, I can rattle off things lefts and right, but when it comes down to everyday things.....I struggle, get frustrated, then sadly forget what was bothering me.

I will try and do better and write more, but it truly is hard these days. Having friends and family who write make it better, as there words and stories give me hope that I to can write like them.

Lots of love from the penguin,

Josh

The Future

"One must sometimes look to the future for guidance

when dealing with the present."

- Josh Leadbetter

Well things sure are changing in my world, but thankfully for the better. With each passing day it looks as though my time with my current job, a Children's Hospital, is slowly coming to an end. As a medical secretary, its never good when they institute a new program with gives 90% of your job to someone else.

But am I mad, now no. I was in the beginning, wow was I mad. But I kind of look at it as a blessing in disguise. I may lose a job, but I will work hard to try and find a career. I do enjoy what I do, I work with kids, wonderful people, and I do the work of 5 people it seems.

But, sometimes we need to take off our little boy pants and put on a pair of manly britches.

Kind of a creepy thought, but you catch my drift.

We shall see where the future goes, hopefully, a fun ride will ensue. Which just a few bumps to keep things interesting.

-JeL

This is just REALLY funny to me, thanks XKCD.

Inspiration in Musical Figures

I'm in the home stretch with my weight loss, walking more, eating better. I can see the finish line even though it is still some ways away. After wavering on this path I'm back on with a vengeance. And one of the things that has helped me stay the course, is music. Mostly, musical figures have played the biggest role. One with the body stlye, the other with the look and attitude

The Body : Till Lindemann - Lead singer of the German band Rammstein, 6'3", built like a tank!

The Look/Attitude: Michael Poulsen - Lead singer of the Dannish rock back Volbeat, the dude just oozes coolness. I got to see him in concert, dude was nice, down to Earth, and loved his fans. About as easy going as they come.

Everyone can strive to be physically healthy, but one must also try to be mentally cool. Cause as we know, there is nothing worse than someone who is fit and trim, but is a complete dick. You have to strive to better all around. Here's to it.......let's finish this thing.

"Music is what feelings sound like."

- Author Unknown

Wrong Year, Wrong Time, Same Lazy Race

I have mentioned before that sometimes, one will feel as though they were born in the wrong century. I am no exception. I long for simpler time when ones life depended on being active and human.

I imagine waking up in the 18th or 19th century. Lighting candles as it is early and the sun is still waiting to come up. I walk across the hard, cold wooden floors to dress. I go down a long set of stairs and exit my home. A home which I helped build. I take in a deep breath and begin to process what needs to be done for the day.

But no, I open my eyes and see laziness. Everywhere. People who die if their cell phones where off for an hour.

Dam we as a race have become f**king lazy. How many would starve if they had to do things for themselves? I can hope the next generation learns to get out and play with a freaking stick at least. But that is doubtful

The Ultimate Calm

“Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the

mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole,

flows from heaven to the soul."

- Unknown

That about explains it all.

Words of Wisdom

There are only two things in this world one should NEVER piss off.

1. An undead centaur who has snakes for hands who's riding a Velociraptor as watches Buffy and drinking the blood of Randy Newman..

2. Women

I'd sooner take my chances with 1.